Don't worry, tomorrow's gonna be a better day.

I just realised I haven't been updating for 4 (maybe 3?) days. And the reason? Everytime I wanna update, I end up falling asleep. YES DAMMIT, ASLEEP! So being a responsible guy, I shall not let this blog to die, and hence, here's my post which is gonna be superrrr long. But still not as long as my stick. Okayyyyyyyyyy, back to posting.

Firstly, Friday was Sports day, woke up at 5.30am, and left house at 5.50am. Met up with Shankar, chatted around and Shankar had a call from Wenqi, saying she's already boarding the train. So me and Shankar was ready to hop in the MRT, but realised they weren't there. And so we waited and waited.. And after 5 trains having gone past, they were finally in that train. 5 TRAINS = BOARDING ALREADY!? WTH, GUY'S 'BOARDING' AND GIRL'S 'BOARDING' ARE TOTALLY OFF CAN.

Anyway, got scolded by Hui Hui for sitting down there and not doing my job as an SC, and reluctantly did my job, but at least I had fun shouting and screaming like some bastard. Hui Hui was best man, while the Chung Cheng girls were dancing, she shouted to me and said 'EH ERIC! STOP DROOLING LA! HAHAHAHA.' WTF! The whole Sec 1 cohort turned to me. I tell you, sibei paiseh bodoh. I was merely nodding my head, thinking 'Wow, good co-ordination!' and they mistook me as some bloody pervert or something. Wonderful, just wonderful.

Anyway, we practically got our ass handed to us by the other 3 schools. It was quite embarassing really, but at least we won some of the events, coming in 1st, although it was only for quite a few. Had lunch with Shankar and co., and Wenqi and co. allll the way at Plaza Singapura, personally, it wasn't really the best outing ever, but at least we enjoyed ourselves, even though a bit. Practically, that whole day, me and Shankar had something bugging us reallllll badly, and I was seriously just pissed off that whole day. But next week's gonna be a better week I guess, so I'll leave my worries and anger in the past, and venture out into the bright future. :)

PS, I'm soooooo sorry I felll asleep whilst messaging you. You know who you are, my apologies!

Saturday.. wasn't all that great either. Skipped choir, and my excuse was 'sunburn', pretty smart eh? BUT DON'T TELL ANYONE I LIED OKAY. Played Final Fantasy 7 Crisis Core the whole day, and bought additional weights and a spring bar thingamajic, where you have to hold the bar with both hands, and then push it in, seriously, I'm not that good at visuals, but at least you get the rough idea.. Right? And oh my gosh, fell asleep again whilst playing my PSP. Feel so lousy can. -.-

And which brings us to today. I'm hoping it's gonna be interesting, since I'm going to church and gonna hang out with them during the afternoon. Oh well, time to get ready, bye people!

TAG REPLIES

passerby : Confidential. :)

yourlovingsenior : I THOUGHT MAKING LOVE WHILE COUGHING WAS HEALTHY! And yeah, I wish I can take out the censor on the words. Meh, parental control. + I sooo agree with you on the 'eu' and 'you' thing. It's freakin' insane.

Alison : I didn't lor. -.-

anonymous : Forgive me for I have a tint of elegance then. :)

H. : I'm friendly as hell, only if you say I'm handsome though. But other than that, I don't see what's so unfriendly about me.

Awkward silence / Wednesday's a bitch again.

They say harsh words break bones, but silence tears the flesh apart. It's amazing how she's just infront of me, yet all the words I wanted to say just vanish. It's too funny, actually, to be repeating the same ol' mistakes. And sometimes I ponder, 'If I really love her, why don't I make an effort?', and I never bring myself to the painful truth. But I guess I will anytime soon, if I don't start doing something to salvage this.

Being far is painful, but being so close, and yet unable to speak, is the most heartbreaking thing ever.



Anyway, today was really a killer, lessons were boring as hell, and my flu's still not cured yet. :( Slept during PoA even though I was right infront of the teacher, and went for detention after school from Wang Qiang. Amazingly, I only did detention for 15mins, thanks to the kiddos and girlios. Thanks guys! Love you(s)!

After my so called detention, we all went down to Parkway to eat, was quite in a rush, since Wenqi had electone at 5pm, but she went off first. Anyway, ate and went to Yamaha around 5.15pm, waited outside and had a great time talking *coughandbitchingcough* about people and things under the sun. After Petrina finished, we walked to Popular before splitting ways.

Chinese tuition at 8pm, believe me, I was pissed, tired and ashamed. Pissed because I was forced to do work when I'm tired, and sleeping for like every sentences he says, tired because.. well, actually, just tired. Ashamed, because mom's paying lots of money for my tuition, and here I am sleeping through it. AWESOMENESS LA ERIC.

Tomorrow's Sports day meeting, so am not able to eat lunch with the guys again, well maybe a little. And on Friday, Sports day itself! My goodness, I'm soooo looking forward to this. Oh well, till next time! :D

TAG REPLIES

yourlovingsenior : I don't know, I thought you were my baby.

Ernest : Haha, it's just that I have SUPASHOOPDAWOOP MEMORY. :D

Andrea : WHAT'S WITH THE XD?!

assiddiq : Lol! WHAT A BB.

Awesome-o day.

Amazingly, today I was able to wake up at 6.10am, and reached Tmart's Macs by 7.30 to have lunch with Shankar and co. and WenQi and co.. Didn't eat, since I wanted to go on a diet, and didn't have money, and also because I already ate at home. :) Amazing thing was, Brayton gave me his Milo! YAY! +1 to manlove charisma!

Had to host the investiture for Assembly, and believe me, I was trembling the whole way, but with the reassuring smile of Andrea *cough*, at least I felt better, and wasn't as jittery as before. Overall, I felt I did normal, could have been better, but normal would suffice for now. Anyway, I hoped nobody heard the mistake I made though. Hahaha.

Lessons was boring as ever, I'm getting chased by Ms. Sayuri for my Amaths homework, and by Wang Qiang for chinese homeworks. And because of my big mouth, I've got a detention from cheena for 1hour on Wednesday. Supposed to be today, but postponed it to Wednesday, and he extended the timing by half an hour. WTF, cheapskate sia.

Head down to Century square in a flash (or you can always call it Taxi), and caught the 3.15pm show of Step up 2! Liu Jing and Li Xuan came late, and sat wayyyyy far from us. Wanted to move there, but the rest was too lazy to. Meh, boredom to the max. Had 'dinner' after that, and I still can't believe Li Xuan thinks I'm Indian. Seriously, seriously, SERIOUSLY hilarious. And I thought she was joking la, until she gave me that 'Huh? Not meh?' look. Classic I tell you.

Well, I really should improve on my vocabulary, so that I can make my entries totally interesting like how Stephanie does it. My goodness, and I thought I had so much shit, that even the world's biggest toilet bowl can't hold me in. -.- Oh well, I guess I'm kinda out of ideas.

PS, class jersey was awesome. Black + Hot pink = win.

TAG REPLIES

RACHEL(: : Haha, see you too! :D

Alison : Actually, I forgot. ._. But let's just take it as the board was down. :D

Because I am a girl

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

(Refrain)
You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you, whoa

(Chorus)
Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry
Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

(Refrain)

(Chorus)

(Narration)
I loved you so
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be
I thought that you'd only love me
Into the night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
But I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl
How I can love you and be burned
And now I will build a wall

To never get torn again

(Chorus 2x)



Believe me, I shed a tear hearing this song. Go search for the music video at youtube. Bloody tearjerker.

TAG REPLIES

Jing and Kevin C. : Linked you guys! ;D

Yang : Yea woooo~

yourlovingsenior : No, Dr. Love. OF COURSE DR. TRAN LA.

tian : THANKS DUDE! :D

Dr. Tran / Boring as hell.

OH MY GOODNESS, BEST SHIT EVER. Believe me, when you're too sianed to do anything, watching this would seriously make your day.

The weekend's been pretty boring, nothing special happened, except that mom's back till Tuesday. Had choreo today, but ended up playing Pepsicola and DJ Max, splendid huh? Yesterday was alright, chatted with people over the phone till late night, and completed God of War before sleeping. Heh, no life worxzxzxz.

I seriously should start posting longer entries, but I just have nothing to write these past few days! ARGH, GIVE ME SOME INSPIRATION! That aside, Final Fantasy 7 Crisis Core kicks ass, breathtaking graphics and a pretty cool gameplay. + It has sexy metrosexuals! :D Okay whatever, I'm off to do cheena homework.

TAG REPLIES

Jacinta, Alan and Zhengxun : Linked! :D

Hidayat : Wassup pusenaden. :)

So close / Founder's day!

You’re in my arms, and all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together and when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by, romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know, all that I wanted to hold you so close.

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
Now you’re beside me, and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

Oh, how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

We’re so close to reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close, so close and still so far.



Bloody great song. Yesterday was Founder's day, I think we did well, but others didn't really think so. Haha, riiiiiight. Had supper with Petrina, Liangdeng, Evan, Belinda, Samuel, Vincent, Hafiz and Jemina at McDonalds. I actually thought they were eating too la, then went ahead to buy food, and realised they're just eating McFlurry. What the eff? Awesome la.

Anyway, tuition in an hour and I still haven't done my homework. Plus, I'm kinda lacking behind in school these days, so have to do some heavy revision. Believe me, I'm guilty as hell for not listening in class.

Lastly, am chosen to be the MC for Monday's and Wednesday's Class commitee investiture. My God, Miss Jamie Tan has got to stop choosing me for last minute events. Meh, at least it ain't so formal this time round. Well, gonna sign off now, ciao!

TAG REPLIES

Zf, Musica and jose : Relinked you guys! :D

Jolene and Samuel : Hey!

yourlovingsenior : My God, you don't even recognise your own parents?

YunJen : :D My smile > your smile.

Never good enough / Step by step

I always have the thought, that I'm never good enough, that if I work with others, I'll pull him down in his potential, that I'll be too huge a burden. Personally, I thought it was 'knowing your limits', but after time passes, I find it's a catastrophic thought, a very destructive and unempowering habit.

As a teenager, I'm always under the pressure of lack of confidence, and this one, is by far one of the worst. It not only doesn't let me feel good about myself, it puts me in a distorted and 'self-conscious' state whenever I work with others, I feel that me being in this work would pull them down, and this would hinder my full capability. It scares me some times, since it's too strong, that it somehow even pulls me away from wanting to befriend others, with fear that I'll end up disappointing them. Hedgehog's dilemma? I totally agree.



Anyway, today was COE ICT! Was bloody frightened man, there were like 400 people, and 2 MCs, plus a bigger downside was that the other MC was even worse off than me! He staggered in his talking, and was trembling like Godknowswhat, and that didn't help at all. Instead I got more nervous, it wasn't even funny.But anyway, part of the event was talks by Professors, so we had a lot of time backstage. I can't believe I actually fell asleep. Yes, that's how boring it is.

Since Liu Jing mentioned a very good point, I shall write it down then. :) Well, personally, old habits die hard, and you know, sometimes when you have the chance, you tend to not have the guts to do it? Yea, that's what happening. I'm supposed to approach the girl, but instead the girl started the conversation? What the hell? What kind of guy am I!? AHHHHH, DAMMIT, GIVE ME SOME COURAGE! Everytime, standard procedure, I won't take my chance, then walk away realising how stupid I was and finally woeing. My God, I have to change.

TAG REPLIES

Mat : Nonsensical, I'm always here. And will forever be. :)

Craig : Thanks dude! Glad you like it.

Liu Jing : Everyone' hot after Photoshop, including you. :D

Wenqi and Shankar : HELLO! :D

Alison : Wassup!

Stephanie : YES, I DID! Haha, no worries!

Immaloveeric : I love you too hun! :D

Yourlovingsenior : Yea, it's immaloveeric. He's so lovely. <3

Jose : Linked!

Regrets / Starting post!

Sometimes, when I look back at my life, I find that there's so many things I regretted. So many things I wish I never did, so many things I wish I could have amended, so many things I wish I could have done. I'll constantly tell myself, amidst my personal thoughts and self-reflection, that I'll never do the same mistakes, that I'll live life with no regrets, and telling myself this little phrase that somehow means a lot to me : 'You have one life, don't waste it lying around doing nothing.', and I'll somehow manage the following day.

But that's all a bluff. I never get through the same ol' habit, I always end up lying flat faced on the ground, just like the times before. And then the cycle goes around - self-reflection, fall, self-reflection, fall.. And the amazing thing is, I never try to change, and I always live in my world of denial that 'tomorrow's a better day'. Sure enough, it isn't. And what's holding it back, is just a bad sum of lack of confidence and a huge amount of fear..



But enough of my personal thoughts, on a lighter note, I've finally made my blog! Hope I'll tend to it and not let it die like what happened to a gazillion of my other blogs. Heh, commitment's not really my best trait.

Anyway, was selected for the damn COE ICT thing, which lead to me not being able to eat out with Shankar and co. on Monday, + not being able to eat out with them again tomorrow. Man this school's such a bitch for choosing me, I swear I'll burn them.. someday. Heh, had our rehearsal today, the stage's HUGE by the way, freaking awesome too since it's red. Redddddddd, dammit!

Wanted to eat lunch with WenQi and co., but they went to Eastpoint, so had lunch at KFC with Shankar, Ivan, Tian Hoe, Brayton and Sheng Hao. Bloody Dickson and co. didn't let me cut the queue but was taking orders for his other friends. WHAT THE HECK? RACIAL DISCRIMINATION WORZXZ. But other than that, nothing much happened over the last few days, well maybe a few, but they're too personal to share on the blog. Haha, riiiight..

So I guess I'll end here, first blog entry and it's so darn long, my God, like writing essay sia.